Women Within The Christian Context Part 2: He Said, She Said, Paul Said

***WARNING***: Writing on both 1 Corinthians 11 and 1 Timothy 2 would be way too long of a post. For the sake of my own sanity, I’ve condensed my thoughts. I did not realize how ambitious this series would be.

Preface

The difficulty of writing about women within the context of Christianity is the inevitability of addressing the more controversial, yet baffling passages that Christians continue to fight over. 50% of Christians love these passages and the other 50% resent them. As a result, there’s a few things I need to bring up before I jump into the crux of the post. 1) Paul’s epistles are almost always in response to particular circumstances or controversy (Ephesians being the exception). For example, in 1 Corinthians Paul covered a number of different issues: divisions and quarrels, sexual immorality, lawsuits among believers, marriage and singleness, freedom in Christ, order in worship, the significance of the Lord’s Supper, the right use of spiritual gifts, and the resurrection. 2) What is challenging about reading Paul’s epistles are the many voices that are influencing Paul’s words. That is to say, because Paul is responding to particular congregations’ understanding of Christianity, Paul will often reference those communities’ thoughts and words in his own writing. Parsing out what Paul is saying among the many voices is hard; even among scholars, there isn’t an agreement on a “correct” interpretation. 3) Therefore, as Christians, we should avoid running the risk of “explaining” Paul in terms that might make sense to us while ignoring what he himself is saying. It’s tempting to do that precisely because in our western culture we don’t like the implications of:

“A man ought not to cover his head, since he is the image and glory of God; but woman is the glory of man. For man did not come from woman, but woman from man.” (1 Corinthians 11:7-8 NIV)

1 Corinthians 11

1 Corinthians 11:7-8 seems to place man in a position of superiority, to which women must submit to being second-class. More importantly, it gives a sense of structure or arrangement to Creation. God>man>woman. This make sense when reading Genesis 2 story; God made Adam, then God made Eve. Man came first, then woman after. Therefore, man is senior to woman. Okay, that’s the end of my post. That’s it. The End. Just kidding!

The Greek word for “glory” is often translates to “splendor, majesty, honor, or excellence”. And the Greek word for “image” often denotes “representation” or “manifestation”. Therefore, 1 Corinthians 11:7-8 logic seems to state that men are the physical representation or manifestation of God’s grandeur, but women come close to it; only because women come from men. Basically, the verses are stating men are similar to Jesus.

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.” (John 1:14 NIV)

The question we, as Christians, need to ask ourselves is, “is this good theology?”. The short answer is a resounding “no”. Why? One way to understand Paul’s words in this chapter (and specifically these two verses) is to look at the Creation story against the Genesis 2’s story.

Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

So God created mankind in his own image,

in the image of God he created them;

male and female he created them.” (Genesis 1: 26-27 NIV)

Genesis 1 states that both men and women are made in God’s image. This is significant because it’s declaring that the individuals of a community, made up of men and women who live out God’s story together, are equally representing of God’s glory. Therefore, it is both men and women who are the physical representation of God; not just the men or the women, but both. In other words, as the german theologian Dietrich Bonhoeffer writes:

“The Church is the physical manifestation of Christ (and/or God) on Earth.”

1 Timothy 2

I don’t think I’m exaggerating when I say that this passage is the foundation for those who want to deny women a place in the ordained ministry of the church, with full responsibilities for preaching, presiding at the Eucharist, and exercising leadership within congregations. When people say that the Bible embodies patriarchal ideas and attitudes, this passage (particularly verse 12) is often held up as the prime example.

“A woman should learn in quietness and full submission. I do not permit a woman to teach or to assume authority over a man; she must be quiet.” (1 Timothy 2:11-12 NIV)

As you read 1 Timothy 2 in its entirety, you pick up a very standard view of how everyone imagines men and women ought to behave. Men are macho, loud-mouthed, arrogant thugs, always fighting and wanting their own way. Women are empty-headed creatures, with nothing to think about except clothes and jewelry. There are “Christian” versions of this too: the men must make the decisions, run the show, always be in the lead, telling everyone what to do; women must stay at home and bring up the children.

I fully acknowledge that the very different reading I’m going to suggest may sound as though I’m simply trying to make things easier for myself; trying to fit Paul into our culture. There is good, solid biblical work behind what I’m going to say and I genuinely believe that it may be the right interpretation.

It is important to recognize that the passage is commanding that women, too, should be allowed to study and learn, and should not be restrained from doing so in verse 11. They are to be “in full submission”; this is often taken to mean ‘to the men”, or “to their husbands“, but it is more likely that it refers to their attitude, as learners, of submitting to God or to the gospel – which of course would be true for men as well. Then verse 12 should not be read as “I do not allow a woman to teach or hold authority over a man”. It means (and in context this makes much more sense to me) “I don’t mean to imply that I’m now setting up women as the new authority over men in the same way that men previously held authority over women”. In other words, what Paul is saying, like Jesus in Luke 10, that women must have the space and leisure to study and learn in their own way, so that men and women alike can develop and share whatever gifts of learning, teaching and leadership among each other.

A great example of this is the story of Phoebe. For those of you who don’t know her story, Phoebe was a first-century Christian woman that Paul has designated as a deacon. The word “deacon” in Paul’s writings sometimes refers to a Christian designated to serve with the overseers of the church or “servants” in a general sense. However, Paul’s use of the term “deacon”, in regards to Phoebe specifically, suggest that Phoebe’s ministry may have extended beyond charitable works to include preaching and evangelization. In other words, she would’ve read Paul’s letters and answer all questions in Paul’s place among a congregation of men and women. Teaching and leading God’s people.

Baptism, Resurrection Power and the Power of Visual Imagery

In our last post we looked at the communal meaning behind the Christian belief in the Resurrection of the Body. In this post, I want to look at how our individualistic tendencies can often skew our understanding about the basic building blocks of what the Christian faith is about. In my Easter Sunday message prep I came across the song “Resurrection Power” by popular Contemporary Christian Music (CCM) artist Chris Tomlin. I’d like to use this song as an example of this tendency.

As far as CCM songs go, this song is pretty much par for the course. The lyrics are loosely based on Scripture, in this case Ephesians 1:19-20, where Paul prays that the Ephesians will know God’s “incomparably great power,” which is the same power that “raised Christ from the dead.” Hence, resurrection power. As with most Tomlin songs, the tune is simple, uplifting, and infectious. What is problematic is not so much the song itself, but the visual depiction of baptism in relationship to the theme of resurrection.

In order for the rest of this post to make sense, you’ll need to watch the video:

First off, I think it is right and appropriate to tie baptism with resurrection. Baptism, at its core, is a sacrament of identification. We, in baptism, identify ourselves with Christ’s identification with us, so that what is true of him is now true of us. Just as Christ died and was raised, so we have died and are raised with him in baptism. Death is symbolized by our immersion underwater — a death by drowning. In dying we are then brought up out of the water indicating the new life we receive in Christ. We see this play out in the video.

So far so good.

But notice how in the video, it is a solitary individual, unsure of where he is going, unaccompanied, driving by his lonesome out into a remote field all by himself. Did I mention he is alone? Here, I think, is where the visual story telling goes awry in depicting what baptism is about (and by association, what resurrection is about). It seems to want to say that baptism is something we can do for ourselves. I have to admit, the way the scenes are cut and edited to fit the lyrics, I feel a certain kind of triumphant elation when the man plunges himself into the water just as the song builds in its climactic turn (right around 3:12). But that’s just it. Baptism is not a triumphant achievement. It is a gift we receive in humility. We don’t plunge ourselves into the water. We are baptized. We get baptized. Baptism is something someone else does for us, not something we can do for ourselves.

What is more, baptism teaches us that we are accepted into a new community. We are baptized into a people — the body of Christ. That is why baptism is never done in isolation. It is always before a watching community. A community of those who will support and sustain us in our new life as members of Christ’s body, precisely because they are the ones who are receiving and ushering us into that body.

Now, couple all this with the oft-repeated chorus, “Now, I have resurrection power.” What we are left with is the subtle suggestion that the power of resurrection is something we possess as individuals for our empowerment as individuals. All of this is a glaring example of the unrelenting focus on the individual in so much of what is labeled Christian in our culture. The individual is not a bad thing to care about, but what often happens is that we, as the proverbial saying goes, miss the forest for the trees. We see this at the end of the video where we find that maybe there is some semblance of a community forming. But no. It turns out they are just other individuals going to out to the same field to baptize themselves. It seemed to me like a guy finding a hidden Starbucks that paved the way for others to flock to it and get their morning fix.

Again, there is nothing wrong with the song itself. I actually quite like it. It is just to say that the visual story telling draws our focus inward whereas Scripture I think wants to draw us outward, outside of ourselves (which I think is how the belief in resurrection is best understood). If we read the passage in which the title of the song is based in context (Ephesians 1:19-20), we would see that the power Paul is talking about is a power that is able to unite what has for so long been separated by enmity and strife. The nasty division between Jew and Gentile. But now, as Paul tells the mixed community of Christ’s body, by the power that brought Christ up from the dead:

19…you are no longer foreigners and strangers, but fellow citizens with God’s people and also members of his household, 20 built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the chief cornerstone. 21 In him the whole building is joined together and rises to become a holy temple in the Lord. 22 And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit.

Eph. 2:19-22

Now, imagine if the video for this song was set to images of reconciliation in which those who have been estranged to the Church are suddenly welcomed into the body. This is the newness that the resurrection makes possible. We have been raised with Christ into a kingdom in which the marginalized and outcast are now at home among God’s people. None are excluded. So, what if at the climactic moment of the song we do not have a man baptizing himself, but the welcoming embrace of those who were once “far-off” now brought near through the saving work of Christ.

Now that would be some resurrection power.

The Resurrection of the Body

It’s been a while, but in our last look on the resurrection, we ended with this image of our lives being held in the memory of God as we await, what the Apostle’s Creed calls, the Resurrection of the Body. This is the orthodox way of expressing the hope for which we patiently wait. It is not the hope of the soul going to heaven when we die, but the hope of the “Resurrection of the Body.” The way it is phrased is wonderfully ambiguous. There are a number of ways to interpret what “the body” means, and when taken together they give us a fuller meaning of what salvation entails.

First, “the body” can mean Christ’s literal, physical body. The Resurrection of the Body is about the resurrection of his body. His body is the body, raised from the dead in advance of all others. As Paul writes, “Christ has indeed been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep” (1 Cor. 15:20). Christ’s risen body is like that first flower that blooms while the snow is still melting, giving us a glimpse of what is in store when spring comes and winter fully passes away.

Second, “the body” can refer to a figurative body. Think of Paul’s famous analogy of Christ’s body — the body of which we have been made members. It is a singular body made up of many parts. The body that is resurrected, in this case, is a people This, I think, is the corrective we need in thinking about salvation in the modern West. That is, we need to see salvation as a communal reality before it is individual. Or better, it is only individual because it is communal. This is something that is entirely glossed over in the “will you go to heaven?” way of thinking about salvation — a predominantly individualistic way of casting salvation.

Lastly, ”the body” can be taken to mean bodies in general. Here, the Resurrection of the Body is about the resurrection of all bodies, not least of which is our own. This is perhaps the most intuitive interpretation. I look forward to the day when my body will be raised. Of course this is true, but I think it best to understand resurrection in the order we have just laid out. The Resurrection of the Body is first about Christ, then about us, then about me.

Rather than seeing the story of Scripture told in five acts, we tend to see it, in our highly individualistic culture, as only three:

  1. Act ONE: Creation/Fall
  2. Act THREE: Jesus
  3. Act FIVE: The End

What is missing? Acts TWO and FOUR, which are Israel and the Church. The way we understand salvation deeply affects the significance we place on these two acts. When the individual is at the center of God’s plan for salvation, Israel becomes an oversight and the Church an after thought.

So it matters how we see the End.

Could we recast the End as our End and not simply my End? Or what if we saw our individual ends as inextricably bound up with the communal End described in Scripture? Then maybe we could better appreciate how integral Israel and Church are. For it is within the living memory of these two communities that the story of Scripture has been and continues to be kept alive. And through the ongoing telling and retelling of this millennia old story, we are given the resources to know that we are not just anybody, but made into somebody by virtue of our inclusion in the body, Christ’s body. It is in, through and for this body that we find our end and it is with this body that we will be raised at the end on the last day.

Women Within The Christian Context Part 1: Mary Magdalene is Arya Stark

Preface

A few introductory remarks before I dive into the topic at hand. First, this subject matter is not an area of primary research for me and many of you will probably know the literature much better than I do, but there are one or two things I may be able to add to the subject. Even then, it will be a fraction of what has been said on this subject. Secondly, I don’t know if we need another Christian man to tell us how we ought to think about women within the Christian context, however, this has been something I have thought about for years and always wanted to do a post/talk on this topic. desire to write a post vs. uncertainty in navigating gender role/climate? Lastly, I get a little nervous about the word “egalitarianism”. I recognize and understand what is being said of course. I think part of my anxiousness is that our culture is so polarized; that a decision on one point commits us into a specific group. The other part of it is that egalitarianism is a hope without the knowledge of, as NT Wright calls, “our freedom in Christ”. What NT Wright means by “our freedom in Christ” is, the hope that is found on the cross points to a completely separate “philosophy” that is outside of (or not constrained by) egalitarianism. Egalitarianism states that all humans should either get the same or be treated as the same in respects to political, economical, social, and civil rights status. As Christian, maybe we start our understanding of equality, not by “should be the same”, but by “already the same”. “Already the same” as in there is no gender (or race). There is only, individuals, human beings, creatures, God’s people, community, etc. In other words, as the Apostle Paul writes:

“There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” (Galatians 3:28 NIV)

Galatians 3:28

Th book of Galatians is about The Law vs grace. Who is considered inheritors and part of God’s family and who is not. The point Paul is making in the book of Galatians is that God has one family and this family consists of all those who believe in Jesus; this is the family God promised to Abraham and The Law can’t stand in the way of this unity which is now revealed through Jesus. However, the book of Galatians (and more importantly this particular verse) is not at all about how we could relate to one another within this family; it is about the fact that the ground is even at the foot of the cross.

Interestingly, as to the English Standard Version, Paul is a lot clearer in what he is conveying:

“There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” (Galatians 3:28 ESV)

The ESV is considered essentially a “literal” translation that tries to capture the precise wording of the original text. As such, it emphasizes on “word-for-word” correspondence. It’s interesting that Paul is stating ‘no male and female’ rather than using another neither/nor statement. “Neither…nor” is a sentence structure that is used to connect the same kind of word or phrase in the sentence and it make it a negative statement about two things. For example:

“Neither the Houston Rockets nor the Portland Trail Blazers will be able to beat the Golden State Warriors”.

To put it in another way, both teams, unfortunately, will not win against the Golden State Warriors. Not this team and not the other. The verse from the NIV is essentially stating the same thing as the ESV verse, but what’s fascinating, at least for me, is Paul in the ESV is emphatically saying “no” instead of using the same “neither…nor” pattern.

Gospels

We can’t ignore the fact that Jesus chose twelve male apostles. There were all kinds of reasons for this within the practical and cultural world in which they worked and lived in. But every time this point is made, we need to remember that the disciples all forsake Jesus and ran away; and it was the women who came first to the tomb, who were the first to see the risen Jesus.

The Greek word for “apostle” is “one who is sent off”. It refers to an emissary or anyone sent on a mission. As a result, an apostle becomes an ambassador of the one who sent him/her. A representative or promoter of a particular news. We frequently think of the twelve disciples and Paul when we think of the word “apostle”. Then we remember that there are other people that hold the title ‘Apostle’. Andronicus, Junia (a woman), James, Barnabas, Apollos, Timothy, Silvanus, and Epaphroditus. But what makes these particular people, the non-original twelve, “apostles”? More importantly, what qualifies someone, like Mary Magdalene, to be an apostle?

Essentially, it boils down to three criterias:

  • To have seen Jesus after the resurrection
  • Received the the good news (i.e. Jesus has risen), not through any other means, but through Christ himself
  • Is tasked to go and tell others the good news that Jesus is risen

This is incredibly significant because this makes Mary Magdalene, not only ‘The First Apostle’, but it also makes her the ‘Apostle to the Apostles’. If an apostle is a witness to the resurrected Christ and is commissioned to tell that Jesus has risen, then there were women, like Mary, who deserved the title of apostle before the men did.

The promotion of women is not a totally new thing with the resurrection. We see this during Jesus’ public ministry, the story of Mary and Martha in Luke 10. Most of us commonly think of this story in terms of Martha is the active one and Mary is the passive or contemplative one when it comes to having guests in our home; and that Jesus is simply affirming the priority of devotion to him. That devotion is part of the importance of the story, but the far more obvious fact for any first-century reader would be that Mary should be in the back room like every other women. Instead she was sitting where men at the time typically sit. This, I am pretty sure, is what really bothered Martha. Of course Martha was upset about being left to do all the work, but the real problem behind it was that Mary had cut clean across one of the most basic social norms. (One example of this is, if you were to invite me to stay in your house and, when it came to bedtime, I set up my bed in your bedroom. We have our own clear, but unspoken rules about our spaces and so did they). Mary ‘sitting at his feet’ is a phrase that is commonly understood today as the adoring student gazing up in admiration and love at the wonderful teacher. However, to sit at the teacher’s feet is a way of saying you are being a student, picking up the teacher’s wisdom and learning. You wouldn’t do this just for the sake of informing your own mind, but in order to be a teacher yourself.

One of Game of Thrones main female character, Arya Stark, is a great example of how a character subverts cultural norms. For those of you who haven’t read the book or watched the show, the weight of oppression on women in the world of Game of Thrones is demonstrated most clearly in Arya as she repeatedly criticizes the restrictions placed upon her by her gender. She lacks any interest in needlework, but is punished for her refusal to engage in the skill or any other activities for her gender. What makes Arya Stark a compelling character is that she echoes much of Mary Magdalene in the Gospels. That is to say, Arya refused to acknowledge gender roles of her society and actively took interests in male-only activities. Much like Mary did.

I’ll have Part 2 out next week

Tony Stark, Peter, and the Story Arc of Christian Discipleship

WARNING: If you have not yet seen Avengers: Endgame SPOILERS AHEAD!

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In our gospel passage this past Sunday we looked at a description that Jesus gives about the kind of death that Peter would die. Jesus tells him,Very truly I tell you, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go” (John 21:18).

The words here are a bit cryptic, which makes interpreting what exactly Jesus is getting at hard to decipher. Having just seen Avengers: Endgame, I thought it might be fun (and illuminating) to explore what Jesus predicts about Peter’s future through the story arc of Tony Stark (aka Ironman).

When we first meet Mr. Stark (ten years ago in the first Iron Man movie), he is a genius engineer, womanizing playboy, and all around smart-ass — the epitome of a self-absorbed and self-determined individual. In other words, he did what he wanted and went where he wanted. Minutes into the film he is severely wounded in an attack by a terrorist group and held captive in a remote cave. In exchange for his freedom, Stark is forced to build a Jericho missile, a weapon of mass destruction that he himself designed for the U.S. military.

While in this cave, we find that a doctor named Yinsen has also been abducted to tend to Stark’s injuries as well as serve as his personal missile building assistant. Both realize that there is no way the terrorists are going to let them go and so they hatch an escape plan. Part of this plan involves building what turns out to be the first Iron Man suit. When they finally make their break things go awry and Yinsen ends up sacrificing his life in order to give Stark the time he needs to get away. It is this act of self-sacrifice on the part of a complete stranger that sets Tony Stark on a hero’s journey that will take more than a decade to complete.

To be sure, there is a charming narcissism that is part of what makes Tony Stark Tony Stark. Indeed his most quintessential (and iconic) line comes at the end of the first movie where he announces to the world, “I am Ironman.” This comes on the heels of being told that it is best to keep his true identity under wraps. But as we noted, he does what he wants and goes where he wants. Simply staying put as Tony Stark is just not as gratifying and glamorous as ascending to superhero stardom.

If you have seen the movie you will know that this self declaration, “I am Ironman,” becomes the climactic and crowning line of Avengers: Endgame. But this time it is spoken by a man who has not remained the same Tony Stark we knew once upon a time. He is no longer possessed by a narrow obsession with his own self-interest. Or rather, it might be better said that his self-interest has since been (en)lightened, no longer weighed down by the heavy tyranny of caring always and only for himself.

We see this set up in the early part of Endgame where we find that in the 5 years since the demigod Thanos snapped half of all life out of existence, Tony Stark has made a comfortable life for himself. Having married longtime love Pepper Potts, they now live a quiet life together in a peaceful lakeside mansion with their 5-year old daughter Morgan. In a way, this is a tremendous step forward for Tony Stark. That he is able to settle down with Pepper and become a father shows a certain kind of growth and maturity from him. But more will be asked of him when Captain America and company show up with a dangerous plan to try and reverse the Snap.

Will Tony safeguard his current idyllic life or will he risk it for what is yet tenuous and uncertain? Will he take the path of least resistance or will he embark on a rescue mission fraught with peril and possibly death? Or as Jesus puts it, will he choose to save his life or lose it?

This brings us to the decisive moment that all 22 movies in the Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU) have been driving towards. History is about to repeat itself, but with a vengeance. This time Thanos is hellbent on wiping every living creature out of existence, not just half. He has once again taken hold of what he needs to do it and just as he is about the snap his fingers he proclaims, “I am inevitable.”

And then comes the snap…

…but nothing happens.

What went wrong (or maybe what went right)?

Somehow Tony Stark has gained the upper hand (pun intended) and it is he who now possesses what is needed to snap Thanos out of existence. (Oh snap!) But he knows that the power released in doing so would more than likely cost him his life. With the fate of all the cosmos hanging in the balance, Tony Stark looks up at Thanos, says, “I am Ironman,” and with a snap of his fingers completes a story arc ten years in the making, taking him from egotistical megalomaniac to self-giving hero.

What Tony Stark goes through can offer us a way to interpret what Jesus says is in store for Peter. Peter, like Tony, is cocky and brash. But also like Tony, his story arc will take him from cocky and brash to humble and self-sacrificial. Who is it that will lead Peter by the hand and take him where he does not want to go? According to church history, Peter is crucified upside down. So many believe that the “someone else” who will lead him may be a soldier leading him to his crucifixion. This is certainly a legitimate interpretation. But what if we thought about it in another way? What if we looked at it in a more figurative way — that what leads Peter is something akin to conviction.

When we speak of being convicted, it is not quite the same as saying, “this is something I want to do.” To be convicted, it seems to me, is not the same as wanting to do something. But neither is it the same as doing something we don’t want to do. Conviction is a kind of unwanted wanting. It is unwanted in that it is something that often works in the opposite direction of our regular inclinations, but is nevertheless a wanting in that it compels us to act in line with a greater desire that issues from beyond us. This is the realm of what Scripture calls the will of God.

When Scripture talks about doing God’s will, it is not language that speaks on the same register as doing that which we want or that which makes us happy. But neither is it calling us to be miserable as if God only makes us do things we don’t want to do. It is speaking on the level of conviction. The journey that Tony Stark goes on moves him from a life driven by selfish desires towards a life drawn forward by conviction. The last thing Tony wants to do is leave the life he has made with Pepper and Morgan and yet he finds himself strangely compelled to open himself up to the very thing that will surely disrupt and possibly put an end to that life.

Where did such a conviction come from? One answer is that it came from Yinsen giving his life to set Tony free. Another finds its beginning in the invitation made to him to become a part of a new community (the Avengers Initiative). It is this community that offered him a way to see his life as part of a larger whole. In a way that is what God’s will consists of. In the Christian faith, this larger whole is defined by a people. Or more accurately, a people gathered around a story about a God who died to set us free. God’s will is what can be discerned within the confines of a community learning to live into this grand story given to us in Scripture. 

So back to what Jesus says to Peter. Could it be that the “someone else” Jesus references is none other than God? That for Peter and for all of us who have been made a part of Christ’s body, the Church, Christian discipleship is about the willingness to follow a God whose will it is to lead us into places where we don’t want to go; and yet find in being led to such places we are drawn out of our tendency toward self-absorption by a conviction shaped by Scripture, discerned in community. And like the story arc we have been following on screen with Tony Stark throughout the MCU, may we take heart that such convictions are not gained over night nor are they formed in a straight line. It is a bumpy ride filled with a mixture of failure and triumph lasting a lifetime. Of course, this is nowhere more evident than in the life of Peter. We know about his foibles. We read about his denials. But in the end, we also know that he becomes one who is able to die a good and honorable death. As the Gospel of John puts it, “a death that would glorify God” (John 21: 19). May our lives follow a similar story arc so that when the hour of our death comes may the same be true of us.

O Love That Will Not Let Me Go

I wanted to do a short series where we reflect on the stories and lyrics behind certain hymns. In order to get the most out of this series, it is recommended that you 1) read the lyrics while listening to the song, 2) read the Story, Thoughts, and Reflection parts of the post, and then 3) read and listen the song once more.

O Love that will not let me go,

I rest my weary soul in thee;

I give thee back the life I owe,

That in thine ocean depths its flow

May richer, fuller be.


O Light that followest all my way,

I yield my flickering torch to thee;

My heart restores its borrowed ray,

That in thy sunshine’s blaze its day

May brighter, fairer be.


O Joy that seekest me through pain,

I cannot close my heart to thee;

I trace the rainbow through the rain,

And feel the promise is not vain,

That morn shall tearless be.


O Cross that liftest up my head,

I dare not ask to fly from thee;

I lay in dust life’s glory dead,

And from the ground there blossoms red

Life that shall endless be.

Story

George Matheson (1842-1906) suffered poor eyesight from birth. At age 15, Matheson learned that he was going blind. He had an incurable condition that would eventually result in total blindness and there was nothing that could be done to help him. However, Matheson was not one to be easily discouraged, he enrolled in the University of Glasgow and graduated at age 19. Whilst at University, he had met and fallen in love with a girl who was a fellow student and they were planning to get married.

He broke the news of his impending blindness to her. To his astonishment and deep sadness her blunt answer came to him like a dagger to his heart, “I do not want to be the wife of a blind man” she said – and with that they parted.

Years later the memory of that repudiation came flooding back on the evening of Matheson’s sister’s marriage. His whole family had went to the wedding and had left him alone. And he writes during his immense anguish. In the darkness of that moment George Matheson wrote this hymn. He remarked afterward that it took him five minutes and that it was the only hymn he ever wrote that required no editing.

Each of the four stanzas begins with a key word—Love, Light, Joy and Cross—that are not only attributes to our relationship with Christ, but also names we give to Christ.

The Cross is the theme of the concluding stanza. Through Christ’s suffering on the cross “blossoms red”. Love, Light, and Joy that comes out of sacrifice—the sacrificial life which blossoms by shedding itself.

Thoughts

In modern English, the word “hope” means “to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence” or “that events will turn out for the best”. In other words, optimism. Does that mean hope and optimism are the same thing? Is hope as simple as having a specific kind of mindset? In our world of Teslas, retirement plans, and Trump, modern people (and Christians) no longer remember how to speak of ‘hope’. More precisely, we have lost the language of articulating what ‘hope’ is.

Hope has become simply a wish for a positive outcome in some future event in our modern language. But if hope is wishful thinking, it might easily be misconstrued as some kind of optimistic defense mechanism in response to the human condition. That is, hope acknowledges the significant obstacles and deep pitfalls of life because hope has no delusions of the present reality. While the ideas of hope and optimism share similar characteristics, only hope can bear the weight of the despair and desperation.

There was period in my life where despair and death were two friends I welcomed expectantly. In such a short amount of time, people I loved were passing away due to cancer, lifestyle choices, and unexpectant circumstances. I had no time to finish processing each person’s passing because death knocked again and again. Thus, I ended up struggling to process the death of my grandmother, uncle, cousin, and a close friend at the same time. It would be easy to write that I had some sort of hope in the midst of all this, but in truth I was in a great deal of despair. At the time, hope was hard for me to grasp onto. It was only by going back to the story of the resurrection I found hope once again.

The resurrection (or more specifically New Creation) paints a picture of our ultimate aim or goal as Christians (telos). As the Apostle John writes,

Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,” for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” (Revelation 21:1-4)

This is a beautiful picture, however, there is a danger of seeing New Creation as an overly optimistic worldview. That is to say, it can be a slippery slope (at least for me it can be!) to see the resurrection AND New Creation as an attempt to turn our eyes away from the despair and suffering we see in world (and in our lives) and say “it will be made right”.

Therefore, the Christian life is not about ignoring despair through wishful thinking or seeing our lives as an one act story. It is about being present in despair and point to an expectation in the midst of that despair. This is essentially our faith: holding both hope and despair together.

Reflection

Take 30 seconds to 1 minute to reflect on what you read and your thoughts. After you finish reflecting, go back to Step 1 and listen to the song once more.